Thursday, October 09, 2003
very tired... just finished the bio project...half dead already!!! woke up at 2 today, went over to shaRen's at 3 to do bio project...came home at 8...ate dinner and continue doing the bio thingie again... it's killing me!!! =(
slept late last nite...slept really really late! about...5 maybe... yeaps, wuz on the phone... but even if im not, i wont be able to sleep... -.-" meL wasnt in such a good mood lately...and i havent been talking much to her ever since exam started... but mingKy just told me that she's upset or whatever you call it...coz i didn't talk to her during shaRen's sleep over thingie... i mean...duDe!!! i did talk to her! but she was the one who wanted to sleep so early...it wasnt my fault!!! im not so sure about why she's been acting like that...but the fact is, yes, i havent been talking to her as much as i used to... but it didnt mean anything....still good friends!!! and i guess she's kinda pissie coz i didn't tell her stuff about me n D...i mean...dude!!! there's nothing between me n him...so there's nothing to tell!!! but...at times like that i used to be damn worried and all... but now i just realise that i dont have to stress myself over such things... she should know me well...but seems like i don't really know her already... she's changed a lil...and she havent been telling me stuff...so im not sure what's up... i can't help her much... only can be there when she needs someone... can't change her life... and i've got my own life...i just realised it...so i should be worrying for myself... after all these years...i've been worrying too much about other peepz...and it's not like they worried about me!!! sad...but true... -.-"
at least i know how to think properly...or maybe you can say...yeaps! ryn's growing up! ryn realises that she got her own life and needs to give herself more attention... humans should be selfish, and they are selfish...so should i!!! no...i havent been lonely yet...i've still got my friends...even though they don't seem to care much... and not like i can tell them stuff... i know some of em can be trusted...but...i prefer keeping them to myself... i don't know why...but i've been like that lately... time just changes everything i guess...
time...where did you go? why did you leave me here alone?
wait, don't go so fast! i'm missing the moments as they pass... now i've looked in the mirror...and the worlds getting clearer... so wait for me this time... i'm down on my knees...i'm begging for all your sympathy... but you, i'm just an illusion... you don't seem to care...i wish that i could... you humble people everywhere...i don't mean to hurt you... now i've looked in the mirror and the worlds getting clearer...i'll take what you give me... please know that i'm learning... so wait for me this time...! i should've know better!!! i shouldn't have wasted those days!!! and afternoons and mornings...i threw them all away! now this is my time...i'm going to make this moment mine... i shouldn't have wasted those days...!!! i'll take what you give me... please know that i'm learning... i've looked in the mirror...my world's getting clearer...so wait for me this time!!!
...time changes everything...including me...
-ryn-
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Ryn. 10th May.
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Chocolates and Booze. Marshmallows. Donuts.
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SickInTheHead. Annoying. OverLoved. Emo-fied. Cranky.
Hyper. Evil. Spoiled. Clingy. Vain. Stubborn. Boy-ish.
Lame. DarnLazy. Blur. Obsessive. Perfectionist.
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